(1) My View as a Ramp Agent! (2) Editing my first batch of plane spotting pictures! (3) One of the finished Products. Enjoy!
Hi All!
I hope you are all having a wonderful summer.
2024 has been quite the year for me. I began flight lessons and online ground school and I finished my first year at college.
2024 has also been a huge mental battle for me. I remember just one moth ago laying in bed thinking about my year thus far. I had no motivation to fly or continue with ground school lessons, I thought about my dreams of flying commercially less, and I was generally unhappy. I had distanced myself from my closest friends, and I had very frequent anxiety and gastrointestinal issues which sent me to the ER after a myriad of doctor visits at one point all of which I had never had before.
That night I realized halfway into 2024; I had been depressed for six months. As someone who always had a goal in life to fly, to laugh, and to work out, I never thought I would be depressed.
I blog about this to bring awareness to the fact that anyone can deal with mental health battles and that its extremely hard for those in the midst of a battle to realize they are struggling. Life can throw us all curveballs that depress us and traumatize us as they can to fill us with utter joy and pure determination. However, realization is the first step to recuperating from any mental health battle and thus I am now doing better each and every day.
For me, for the last few months my focus shifted from flying and this wonderful community to recovering from my mental health which physically sent me to the ER and through numerous doctor’s visits due to gastrointestinal issues which went undiagnosed for four arduous months.
As I work on myself each and every day and the clouds begin to clear in my life, I am determined more than I ever have to fly again and to complete ground school as swiftly and to the best degree I possibly can. My dream of being a commercial airline pilot is once again filling me with determination and an amazing purpose! Two weeks ago, I returned to the airport to work as a ramp agent again this time contracted to Frontier Airlines where I will even be trained for loadmaster, pushback, and potentially station training manager duties! I also contacted my flight school’s owner to discuss flying again, and I have begun Sporty’s ground school training again. I also now plane spot which serves as an activity which brings me peace and tranquility. It’s a great mental reset. And like always I work out every day.
To anyone struggling physically or mentally, just know struggle is temporary. Even on your worst of days. Find your life purpose(s) even in the darkest of times, and don’t be too hard on yourself. Even when you feel horrible, love yourself and live life undeniably and confidently.